What are you talking about, I don’t have a hat problem.
Name: Anežka Beatrice
Nickname(s): Tara, Tarakau
LIKES / DISLIKES:
Favorite Color(s): teal and black
Least Favorite Color: yellow
Favorite Food: spaghetti bolognese
Least Favorite Food: brussels sprout ewww
Favorite Band/Artist: Woodkid, Caravan Palace, Parov Stelar, Muse
Least Favorite Band/Artist: idk
Favorite Type of Movie: action/DETECTIVE STORIES
Least Favorite Type of Movie: romantic, sorry Alex
One thing you can’t get enough of: 1920’s fashion
One thing you hate more than anything: brussels sprout
Are you single? no
Do you have a crush on anyone right now? does it count as a crush if you are dating that person
Do you flirt a lot? people say I do
Sweetest thing you’ve ever gotten: aa I don’t know I am sorry I hate deciding what people/things/gifts are my favourite
Do you believe in love at first sight? I think so but like Alex said it’s more love at first conversation
Do you fall in love fast? I didn’t think I did but look at me now heh
Do you ever make the first move? usually?
Do you want to get married? who doesn’t
A daydreamer? all the time
Talkative? yes! I love talking to strangers
Energetic? 50% of the time
Happy? almost all the time now
Depressed? just sad, sometimes
Caring? i am a mother hen for the czech HS community
Trustworthy? I hope so
Confident? most of the time
Sarcastic? trying to tone that down but yeah
Dependable? uhhh I think so, like depends who you are
Adaptable? yes, but I usually cry about it first
Emotionally strong? ugh 50% of the time
Religious? trying to be, at least a little bit
Indecisive? yeah man
Nosy? yes unfortunately
Lazy? haha yeah
Romantic? i’d say yes
Obsessive? not really
AAAAaaaaa exactly this is what I feel like most of the time nowadays!
After 4 years of being unable to pick myself up, 4 years of depression and panic seizures and health problems I somehow got over it and it’s incredible! I mean, there are still problems I need to deal with and those problems are more real then what I was dealing with when I had to take Xanax almost every day to be ok, but I can handle them. Sure sometimes I still have to cry, but it’s just the fear of the future, not depression.
The last time I talked to my psychiatrist I told her that since all of this is over, I feel invincible. I feel powerful. I feel strong and ready to start anew, because I have all the experience with bad stuff that can help me overcome the future bad stuff. And I still feel like that!
Now, this state doesn’t have to last forever. I might relapse soon, or never, or in 20 years, but I will always remember the feeling of being ready to accept new challenges life can give me.
Ok if I save some money and get to this electroswing party in December I might hopefully win about 10 000CZK (about 500 bucks) in ‘The most authentic swing outfit’ competition and oh my god I need that money so much guys please wish me all the luck that would be kind of a dream come true and a peak of my ‘20’s fashion enthusiast’ hobby.
Okay what I really like about facepaint painted over your mouth is the fact that you have to keep talking to a minimum. Somehow, gesturing and being quiet all the time just doubles the creepy effect.
I also like the fact that when done correctly it moves according to your grimace so you can make a lot of funny/creepy faces like that.
Going out in the 20’s outfits brightens my day so much and you can see it. One of my favourite things about it is watching the reaction of people, which is usually either shocked and disgusted or absolutely happy and delighted. Some people chat with you (and I love that!), some take pictures of you, some just nicely smile and admire you from afar.
Some tell you that you must be fucking crazy, some tell you that they admire you and that you look adorable.
Some secretly look into your shopping cart, to see what you are buying.
It’s nice and I love it. I chose a good hobby.
So my new room is super girly and then you see my fucking knife collection everywhere and you realize the girliness is just a pretence.
hey guys today I bought a knife I have always wanted for a really affordable price and I have to share it with you because some people have a thing for nice cars or hats I have a thing for knives and when I was still living with my parents I couldn’t even look at kitchen knives and now look at me this is the fourth knife in my knife collection but so far probably my most favourite I MEAN LOOK HOW FAST IT IS
I got fired today.
After being yelled at the whole day and crying the entire time, I got fired.
This was my first job. It made me exactly half happy and half super sad, but it was a great experience that helped me organize things better, work with people and get my physical condition better. Plus I lost about 8 kilos. That was nice.
It also taught me that I could never be happy with a job that doesn’t involve thinking at all, creativity or intelligence.
All of my colleagues were around 30 years older than me, none of them finished high school and most of them used to work as a cleaner.
I was the only one who liked reading. The only one who spoke any other language than Czech. Only one who had their high school finished (well..).
The reason was, according to them, that they can’t employ ill people (I took one day a few weeks ago because I threw violently at wok. Also I left early once because I was had a complete mental breakdown).
The true reason probably is though that they didn’t like me and the manager wants to employ her daughter instead of me.
I could write a whole damn article about how hard is this to get employed when you suffer from a,long term mental illness, but I won’t. I don’t want to admit to myself that I am ill, I don’t want the world to change for me, but I have to change for the world.
Hopefully I will have better luck next time.
So yeah, no more work for me till September, when I hopefully get a job in a theater. Wish me luck.