Ok if I save some money and get to this electroswing party in December I might hopefully win about 10 000CZK (about 500 bucks) in ‘The most authentic swing outfit’ competition and oh my god I need that money so much guys please wish me all the luck that would be kind of a dream come true and a peak of my ‘20’s fashion enthusiast’ hobby.

Okay what I really like about facepaint painted over your mouth is the fact that you have to keep talking to a minimum. Somehow, gesturing and being quiet all the time just doubles the creepy effect.

I also like the fact that when done correctly it moves according to your grimace so you can make a lot of funny/creepy faces like that.

I am turning 20 in three days and I still cannot believe that.

Guys guys I can’t be that old.

Going out in the 20’s outfits brightens my day so much and you can see it. One of my favourite things about it is watching the reaction of people, which is usually either shocked and disgusted or absolutely happy and delighted. Some people chat with you (and I love that!), some take pictures of you, some just nicely smile and admire you from afar.

Some tell you that you must be fucking crazy, some tell you that they admire you and that you look adorable.

Some secretly look into your shopping cart, to see what you are buying.

It’s nice and I love it. I chose a good hobby.

So my new room is super girly and then you see my fucking knife collection everywhere and you realize the girliness is just a pretence.

hey guys today I bought a knife I have always wanted for a really affordable price and I have to share it with you because some people have a thing for nice cars or hats I have a thing for knives and when I was still living with my parents I couldn’t even look at kitchen knives and now look at me this is the fourth knife in my knife collection but so far probably my most favourite I MEAN LOOK HOW FAST IT IS

hey guys today I bought a knife I have always wanted for a really affordable price and I have to share it with you because some people have a thing for nice cars or hats I have a thing for knives and when I was still living with my parents I couldn’t even look at kitchen knives and now look at me this is the fourth knife in my knife collection but so far probably my most favourite I MEAN LOOK HOW FAST IT IS

I got fired today.

After being yelled at the whole day and crying the entire time, I got fired.

This was my first job. It made me exactly half happy and half super sad, but it was a great experience that helped me organize things better, work with people and get my physical condition better. Plus I lost about 8 kilos. That was nice.

It also taught me that I could never be happy with a job that doesn’t involve thinking at all, creativity or intelligence.

All of my colleagues were around 30 years older than me, none of them finished high school and most of them used to work as a cleaner.

I was the only one who liked reading. The only one who spoke any other language than Czech. Only one who had their high school finished (well..).

The reason was, according to them, that they can’t employ ill people (I took one day a few weeks ago because I threw violently at wok. Also I left early once because I was had a complete mental breakdown).

The true reason probably is though that they didn’t like me and the manager wants to employ her daughter instead of me.

I could write a whole damn article about how hard is this to get employed when you suffer from a,long term mental illness, but I won’t. I don’t want to admit to myself that I am ill,  I don’t want the world to change for me, but I have to change for the world.

Hopefully I will have better luck next time.

So yeah, no more work for me till September, when I hopefully get a job in a theater. Wish me luck.

Went to work for the first time today and I really like it so far!

I am really glad I got the chance to do this, it’s fun.

And another, better job, starts in September, woo!

And now we return to our regular program of trying to convince myself that ending everything is not an option.

This is just getting worse and worse what do I do.

If you dislike Homestuck so much you stop talking to me completely, I am sorry, but I am not going to stop liking anything only because you can’t stand it. You can unfollow me because I have found many friends in this fandom and the webcomic itself helped me a) feel much better about myself and b) cosplaying helped me partly overcome depression and social anxiety.

To personally celebrate my birthday in September I put on a nice dress, did my hair and pretended to come from the Roaring Twenties. That’s a thing I do and love and even though I know I still have many flaws, it’s great fun.

Photos by (c) Rojta

Wow I haven’t blasted dubstep this loud in months.

I would be in a much better Christmas mood if it was SNOWING.

I will never stop pronouncing Meulin as /mojlin/ because of German.